Lego House

Hey I was doing my laundry and watching TV while hanging my clothes to dry. I was watching the Voice of Germany. One of the contestants did a version of Ed Sheeran’s “LEGO House”, while playing the guitar. This guy was really good, even if he didn’t seem to be trying. I thought he was good and I even could recognize the song, at that moment I didn’t even realize who sings the song originally. I wasn’t aware it was Ed Sheeran, but I recognized the melody and Could really hear the lyrics. So I hear the song and immediately I understood the song, and I thought to myself. This is what is missing from my character,.. this spirit to pick someone up! To give someone a pep talk, get them up off the floor. And I know why! I never see myself letting life beat me down. Yeah it happens, but if you let me tell it,. I am never beat, I always fighting. I can’t stop, don’t stop, won’t stop!! To actively pick someone else up! I miss the chances to give those high energy motivational little talks that make people happy! Or gets someone to smile,.. I heard these words and felt so bad,..

I’m gonna pick up the pieces
And build a Lego house
When things go wrong we can knock it down
My three words have two meanings
There’s one thing on my mind, it’s all for you
And it’s dark in a cold December, but I’ve got ya to keep me warm
And if you’re broken I’ll mend ya
And keep you sheltered from the storm that’s raging on now
I’m out of touch, I’m out of love
I’ll pick you up when you’re getting down
And out of all these things I’ve done I think I love you better now
I’m out of sight, I’m out of mind
I’ll do it all for you in time
And out of all these things I’ve done I think I love you better now
I’m gonna paint you by numbers and color you in
If things go right we can frame it, and put you on a wall

I really sometimes feel so arrogant, my attitude is “I” don’t know how to blatantly say things that sound fake,.. I would really mean it if I said “I’ll pick you you up if you’re feeling down!“,… instead I’d say something like “I hate to see you crying”,.. because I always want to pick you up, before you’re feeling down. I don’t want to say it,.. I want that, I try to show that,.. but the words? I don’t think about how to tell you that’s how I feel. “I think I love you better now“,.. doesn’t he know he loves better,.. but the question alone is probably exactly the stuff girls/women want to hear. But I also it feels good to have someone give you energy and try to make you feel better. My thoughts are that everyone is responsible for themselves and their mood and have to hold themselves up! But that’s the case when you’re alone!!! When there’s others in your life,.. they can help you when their around. Sometimes you (a person) has to learn how to accept help. People have to learn to trust others,.. I have lost that trust in people,.. that’s why I have developed the unhealthy behavior,.. it’s hard to accept help, or even really take a compliment. Really believing a compliment or opening up to positive critique. You can’t believe what people say all the time. So I thinks why I practice the habit of not speaking to people so openly. But it’s strange I do trust people, even strangers,.. strangers maybe even more than people that were longtime friends! I know I can be cold to old Ex. friends and my so-called Ex.

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